Someday.. my own business shop :')

I believe everyone have their own passion. My passion is someday i wanna open my own handicraft shop. I love to do cross stitch and want to combine it with something unique. 

I realize when people around me said i'm creative and also talented with cross stitch. I still a young stitcher seriously i start to stitch such a year ago and met many fabuluos and expert stitcher that why i can learn so fast until now. 

I still not believe that i'm talented like people told me so. I love art thingy but i never got any art achievement in my life until those moments come to my life

1. In February 2013, my cross stitch works "The Central Javanese Wedding got framed" being choosen as the best choice from Deviantart Indonesia. 

Fyi, Devianart is the world largest online art community and showing 256 million pieces of art from over 26 million registered artist and art appreciators. Seriously, am i still dreaming? how can my works getting Daily Month Deviation (DD) standing together with the best another indonesian's artist?  

2.  In the last November 2012, my cross stitch works "A Row of Love by Dimensions" also chosen for November 2012 featured in Deviants Gallery group. 

I can't say anything. still speechless and i really wanna say thank you for all my Friends who always support and encourage me with your words! Those two achievements are really have deep meaning from me. It make me realize that my passion is still in art and those the enough reasons why i want to open my handicraft business someday. 

April was my lucky months

Huwaa it's already six months i haven't been wrote anything in my blog. There were many things happen in over past six months in my life.

I remembered on friday, 29th March 2013 i passed the administration test for Indonesia Eximbank test and go to another process that we called written test that consist of banking and factual news knowledge (Stage two). We will get the news if we are passed or not in the afternoon. my feeling was not good you know what i found the questions "When is the peace day being celebrated?" or such as "Which country will be the host of Asian games 2013?"  it's also remind me my failure when i took ministry foreign affairs' exam in last september 2012 :'(  

Almost two o'clock in the afternoon the test result being announced and yayy i shocked my name written as who passed the test and eligible to continue in next test which means Psychological test (Stage three). Many test that i have been going through until in the dawn. I remembered the difficult and tiring one was Pauli test. we have to count the mathematical number until the speaker said "finish". It takes one hour and i already finish my second half pages. They want to know how you handle your stress and working in under pressure. I have to catch up my train to my home and i just do my best. They will announce it you passed or not to the stage four test. 

In the night, I shout loudly when i got text message that i have been passed to stage four test which means TOEIC test. Aahh i never going through this english test before since i only try IELTS and TOEFL test before. I try to learn as much as i can do. thanks to application in my android i can study at least a little bit and in the night they told me that i have passed to stage five test which means interview with the human resources consultant in Kemang. I still shocked how i can passed to stage five of test in just such three days? It's tiring seriously i got the interview schedule on 10.00 A.M and i already arrived on 06.00 A.M. I'm optimistic that i will passed the interview test since i can answer the question clearly and my assesor also very friendly >//< 

After waiting for one week without certainty, I'm happy that i passed to stage six of test which means

interview with Indonesia Eximbank's human resources head department. i'm being interviewed in 12 PM in the headquarter's office. I really love their office. So Indonesia and ethnic! wayang, batik and carving collection in everywhere. i wish i can work in there someday. Thanks god my interview with them run smoothly. I hope i can continue to another test stage. 

I believe if Almighty Allah SWT will give the best one for me. I don't want have  any high expectation. I remembered clearly on friday, 12th April i was announced passed the test and continue to next test which means medical check up in another day. Oh my, I'm so grateful that i can passed until the last test. the laboratory's staff check all of my health start from my blood until my heart and thorax. It's complicated medical check up and i hope there are no something wrong in my health. It's just one another step to my finish line. 

Finally, i'm happily announced that on friday, 26th April 2013 i was accepted as Indonesia Eximbank's employee. I'm really shocked when i know from 3.208 applicant only 30  people include me that being accepted as employees, Thanks god for your kindness, your way for me. I believe what you choose for me it's already the best one for me. :') 

I got my Sewing Machine!

I remembered a few month ago my dad said to me that he have bought me a sewing machine! i totally speechless since i never think before he will buy me one. He already see my passion through craft and cross stitching and decide for me learn more about sewing. so someday he hope i can make my own clothes. 

The big day is coming! i remembered clearly on wednesday, 5th September 2012 the sewing machine is arrived at my house! yayy! 

Singer Stylist Model 7258

I amazed with this sewing machine. since i always saw the old traditional sewing machine which using desk and foot to running the machine. this electronic sewing machine also have 100 stitch patterns that includes 6 types of buttonholes, construction and stretch stitches. stylist features include 13 needle positions, needle threader, top drop-in bobbin, programmable needle up/down and decorative stitch lock

In the fact, i'm still not good for how to operate that super stylist and high-technology sewing machine. However, i really happy when i got this one. it motivates me to taking sewing's course soon. maybe i will take beginner-intermediate class for it! *cross finger *wink 

67th Indonesia's independence day!

17th August 1945 - 17th August 2012 (67 years) Happy independence day my country Indonesia!

Thanks God we already survived from the colonialization from such 67 years ago!
Now in my head hanging two big questions such as:

1. Are we really trully independence country?
i can say maybe my country actually written as independence country but in the reality it's still NOT. globalization and intervening from other countries still really stick in my country. we are still depends on what the developed country wants and doesn't want to stand out with our own will. How come on 21st July 1986 we were got special gold medal from FAO (Food and Agricultural Organization) as one of the biggest country who produces rice and survived by itself. Our first president, Ir. Soekarno even break the record on 7th January 1965 we are the only one country who brave to resigned from United Nation's (UN) members. Now, we even barely can say no to developed country who make investment to our country and let's them to do exploration and excavation in our natural resources without thinking about the long run environment sustainability?

2. What can we do as youth to our country?
ACTION! i don't want to be passive one citizen. we need to stand up again and be survive! Be agent of change to giving positive impact to our society. we really need open our mindset and watch carefully from the good case practice from other countries and reducing our bad case practice. seriously, i doesn't want my country recognized in the world as the most corruption countries or heard some fact the most corruption ministry is religion ministry? what the hell is that? i'm feel ashamed when heard our bad reputation.. we need to show what the beautiful and the good reputation from our countries it is?

I decide to join some organization that can make me participate to giving impact in my society in my last semester in university. are we as youth really care with global issues that happening in our country? for example Entrepreneur and Environment issues? are we already try our best to educate and delivery the key message how important to make such job opportunity in our countries? are we really care to delivery the message about global warming? how come in East Indonesia which always raining and dry season along the year now snow is falling there?? there are so many things that we need to deliver and educate our citizen not just to be accept the way it is but we must fight to get what we want to! Even John. F Kennedy, Last former US President said "Ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country" .

it seriously a big homework for me as one of indonesian's citizen. we need to wake up soon from this terrible dream and adjust our ryhtm like our neighbour country!

Indonesia tanah airku
Tanah tumpah darahku
Disanalah aku berdiri
Jadi pandu ibuku

Indonesia kebangsaanku
Bangsa dan Tanah Airku
Marilah kita berseru
Indonesia bersatu

Hiduplah tanahku
Hiduplah negriku
Bangsaku Rakyatku semuanya
Bangunlah jiwanya
Bangunlah badannya
Untuk Indonesia Raya

- Indonesia Raya  by W.R Supratman - (Indonesia National Anthem)

stepping out from your comfort zone

when i already graduate from Economics and Business Faculty from Airlangga University, Surabaya last October 2011. i need move out to Jakarta. this fact situation kinda freak me out. why? there are some reasons that i fear at jakarta :


first, iam a person who always stay at home. iam only go hang out to the nearest mall/place or go sightseeing with my family. i don't have any experience remembering jakarta's map. *blind for jakarta's map


second, i hate the traffic jam at jakarta. we lose our time and energy on it. it totally different with Surabaya. i can still go to campus 30 minutes before the classes start. 


Third, iam afraid with the bad condition of public transportation at jakarta. seriously, there are alternative for a good one. but i can't drive out car and motorcycle at all. it make me worry about the increasing number of criminality


Now, the situation is totally changed my mindset! until now i still can't believe that i can do anything that i hate most! *DRIVING CAR and COOKING! 


when i thought about the bad condition our public transportation management, i learn and try convice myself agian to fluent my driving car lesson! it's uneasy for me because since i don't know jakarta's map. (i know i'm still lose in jakartas road =___=a).I can say i proud myself who brave driving car in such hectic and crowded city with family car. at least, now i can be driver-assistant for my dad. I don't want my dad exhausted and sick because driving car :)


At first, when i lived with my auntie in surabaya. seriously, iam asking myself why i need to help cooking and cutting down the ingredients. it's not the activity that i like. but since i move out to jakarta and i plan to having master degree aboard someday i have to be more independent. i don't want eating for fast food everyday so i need to cook by myself. i learn from recipe books and voila i can make it! i already know how to cook fish and soup! it will be my one of skill that i need it for having family in the future!


so, based on my story above i can make conclusion. 
Stop limit your thought that you can't do that activity, your mind limit your hidden potential!
stepping out from your comfort zone make you more developing than before!
never say NO for something that you never did before! at least try and do it little by little!


so do you get inspired for stepping your comfort zone now? :) 

A little spark of light

i know my journey will be hard because i need to convince to people that i loved to. it's just need a small relax conversation to talk what i wanna do in the next future. i know if there's a strong will on it, there will be a way for me! :) :) *keep fighting for your reach your dream! :)

this quotes can be representative my thought (credits to: lanipauli.tumblr.com) 

Tips trik buat penderita Demam berdarah

Baiklahh. karena aku pernah mengalami sakit Demam berdarah kita singkat dengan *DBD ya dan kayaknya lagi musim orang sakit DBD. aku mau ngasi tips dan trik gimana aja supaya trombositnya cepat naik.. *based on my experience

Kalo kalian sudah mengalami gejala-gejala seperti berikut :
1. Demam tinggi selama 3 hari (gak mempan dikasi obat penurun panas)
2. badan lemas dan kuat berdiri lama-lama
3. kepala pusing
4. di hari ketiga atau keempat panasnya turun dan kayak berangsur-angsur sembuh ini perlu diwaspadai

karena kemungkinan besar kalian mengidap demam berdarah, kalian wajib cek darah ke laboratorium.. dan kalo menemukan trombosit kalian kurang dari 150.000 selamat! anda positif terkena DBD

Biasanya penderita DBD akan diberikan 2 opsi oleh dokter dari klinik yang bersangkutan. mau diopname di rumah sakit atau di rumah saja? kalo aku boleh ngasi saran mendingan kalian meminta dirawat dirumah sakit. selain perawat akan ada selama 24 jam buat kalo kamu membutuhkan apa2 dan mudah dalam mendapatkan obatnya dan selama kalian dirawat dirumah sakit

ada tips trik gimana aja supaya trombosit kalian cepat naik :

1. Minum jus jambu biji

kalo bisa jus jambu beneran jangan yang sudah dijadikan kemasan. jambu biji dapat membangun ketahan tubuh dan daunnya bisa menghambat virus dengue

2. Minum Angkak

Angkak adalah beras merah cina produk fermentasi menggunakan kapang Manascus sp. berasal dari negara China. rasanya pahit dan biasanya dijual di supermarket-supermarket besar. cara pemakaiannya? ambil takaran 2 sendok teh dan direbus. setelah itu air sisa rebusannya masih merah kan? tunggu sampe gak terlalu merah lalu bisa untuk gelas kecil sekali minum. sekali rebusan bisa untuk 2 kali minum. *pokoknya coba kalian kira-kira aja ya

3. Minum Pocari sweat
kita familiar kan dengan minuman pengganti ion tubuh yang satu ini? yapp. minuman ini bisa juga menjadi alternatif menaikkan trombosit jika diminum minimal 4 kaleng perhari. namun aku tidak menganjurkan untuk meminumnya kalo kalian memiliki penyakit maag. dan tidak semua dokter menyarankannya karena kan kalian udah diinfus jadi tidak perlu pocari sweat

4. Minum sari kurma
ini adalah minuman yang waktu DBD aku sering minum yaitu sari kurma. kalo pas sari kurma yang aku minum itu diminum 3 kali sehari. tiap kali minum itu mesti 2 sendok makan. tapi it really works for me.

5. Minum buah anchuy

ini adalah buah dari cina. rasanya kayak Asem-asem jawa. lebih mending minum anchuy aku bilang daripada angkak. meski sama dari cinanya. jadi buahnya ini diambil sarinya jadi warnanya kayak teh.dan ini juga memberikan efek trombosit bisa naik dengan cepat. biasanya banyak ditemukan di blitar atau tanpa kita sadari punya pohonnya dirumah

semoga sedikit pengalaman dariku ini bisa membantu teman2 yang sedang menderita demam berdarah. demam berdarah bukan momok yang mengerikan kok. cuma kita harus tau strategi yang pas buat mencegah, dan mengobatinya :)

UAS menggila!!

yahh akhirnya Ujian Akhir Semester atau lebih sering kita singkat dengan yg namanya UAS telah tiba! perasaan cepet bener yakk. baru juga Mei gw UTS sekarang udah UAS aja.. *masih kebawa dengan main-main (*gw tiap hari sukanya maen)

gw shock! gimana gak shock? gw jarang nyentuh buku kecuali pemstrad ya itu punya pengecualian khusus! huaa ini gimana ujiann?? mau diisi apaan ya? muka gw serasa ditampar dengan UAS yang seminggu lagi datang! musim ujianpun datang.. dan baru kusadari.. *cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan? haha kokk jadi lagunya pupus dewa yahh! *JEDUGG.. Ujian gw 50% semuanya paper.. dan sebagaimana yang sodara tau saya tidak terlatih menulis paper!


dari matkul seminar MP sampe Metpen semuanya paper! siipp! ini kalo lembur lembur dahh.. *hopeless bener. yang paling gw prioritasin adalah paper gw di metpen dan Pemstrad. kalo gw gak lulus dua ituu gimane gw mau ambil skripsi? trus masa nilai konsentrasi gw sendiri jelek sii? khusus dua matkul itu gw bela-belain dateng ke Ruang baca dari jam 10 pagi sampe jam 6 malem! *Amazingg! biasanya gw cuma tahan di ruang baca maks 2 jam!

haha ini semua berkat paper2 ujian gw! *tepok2 tangan pokoknya UAS ini bener2 menggila dehh. dari segi ngebut belajarnya.. apalagi AKM II. aduhhh ampunn! saya nyerah dengan accounting error dan leasing yang njelimet *thanks god i'm marketer.. bisa2 kalo aku jadi akuntan gak balance2 ini laporan keuangannya.. haha

sampe UAS menyita jam tidur gw yang nyenyakk.. tau kan gw anaknya doyan tidur? dengan motto anytime, anywhere haha.. baru tidur jam 3-4 pagi demi ngerjain paper dan belajar! *wihh ini udah kecepatan turbo banget buat belajar

Tuhan berikanlah kemudahan dalam ujian Akhir semester ini! pokoknya apapun yang terjadi semester depan harus ambil 24 SKS dan skripsi! amienn! i can do it! =.=

Aku adalah aku

aku adalah aku.
aku ingin dicintai dengan sederhana.

aku adalah aku.
aku bukan superwoman.
aku bukan sehebat yang kau pikirkan

aku adalah aku
aku bukan seperti yang kamu inginkan
aku juga tidak memiliki hal yang bisa menarik dirimu

aku lelah dinilai dari jabatanku
aku lelah dinilai hebat
aku cuma cewek biasa
yang bisa sayang sama kamu!

tatap dan pandang aku lekat2
kenali aku lebih dekat
aku adalah aku.
kamu adalah kamu
mereka adalah mereka

jangan pandang aku seperti itu
lihat aku lebih dalam
dan nilai aku lebih dekat

satu pintaku
bisakah kamu lakukan itu?
aku hanya ingin kamu mengenalku sebagai aku
aku adalah marina
bukan aku yang kamu pikirkan

that's simple enough right?

everything need process. it's not easy like blink your eyes

gw melihat fenomena yang saat ini terjadi di generasi muda saat ini : di jaman serba canggih, semuanya serba cepat maka mereka pun terbiasa dengan hal yang instan.

adakah yang salah dengan ini? gak ada yang salah kok. gw pun terbiasa dengan segalanya serba cepat dan praktis. namun sebenarnya instan yang kayak apa yang mau gw bahas?.

tidak semua aspek hal dalam hidup ini bisa instan dan cepet layaknya mie instan. apa kalian pernah lihat bayi lahir langsung bisa jalan? anak kecil langsung bisa gunain toilet? Gak kann? disini keyword yang mau gw tekankan adalah *PROSES!

Yah proses. semuanya butuh proses. kita emang butuh yang namanya cepet dan praktis. tapi jangan sampe melupakan yang namanya proses dan hasilnya. yang terjadi di anak muda saat ini mereka hanya mau menengadahkan tangan minta dikasi uang tanpa mau mencari sendiri gimana mendapatkan uang.. nah hal-hal yang kayak gini yang patut kita waspadai.. mau jadi apa generasi pemimpin di Indonesia kalo pemudanya masih minta disuapin tanpa mau berusaha?

Yang perlu diperhatikan disini adalah. apa yang kita inginkan gak semudah apa yang kita pikirkan.. misalnya lo mau dapet peserta banyak.. yahh lo promosi donk ke sekolah2 yang menjadi target audience tema acara lo. emangnya peserta langsung berbondong-bondong dateng sendiri ke acara lo? gak kann?

gw miris banget ngeliatnya.. mau dibawa kemana indonesia kita ini nantinya? kalo dari hal kecil aja kita gak berusaha mengubahnya. dari diri kita sendiri : berpikir lebih dewasa dan lebih mementingkan proses dibandingkan minta yang jadi.

memangnya kalo kita sebagai pemuda terbiasa dengan minta yang jadi? terus apa learningnya buat diri kita? bayi pun yang pengen bisa belajar jalan mesti jatuh bangun pada awalnya supaya dia bisa jalan dengan tegak?

mulai saat ini dan detik ini ayo kita sebagai pemuda ubah paradigma kita. kita memang hidup dalam jaman serba cepat dan praktis? tapi kita tidak boleh melupakan pentingnya prosesnya itu sendiri kan?

our new baby is born!

exciting? yes! happy? yes! challenging? yes! new opportunity? yes!!

i can't explain my feelings right now. its absolutely mix up into one. how come?

we will get new baby! ahaha.. i means that

AIESEC Surabaya will get NEW MEDIA PARTNER! *sst, the name still secret okayy?

WOHOO! you can imagine that? Communication department will handle the partners! and its the first time we RAISE media partner.. waww! amazing! *thanks a lot for ER department

i know we can make awareness to AIESEC Branding to Surabaya's Citizen! * i hope in my term AIESEC branding will get Desire and Action Stage. in Marketing, we have consumer process (AIDA : Awareness - Interest - Desire and Action). Action means many citizens participate in our activities and we can give impacts more than before

our responsibility is more bigger than before. last time, we only maintain two media partners and now? THREE media partners. it will need a great efforts from my communication team as well. it will challenging ourselves to maintain and seek the opportunities too.

waw! i can't imagine how we can communicate well about AIESEC activities and gives impact to Surabaya's Citizen more and more.
i just believe we can do it!

Dream and action! just prove it and do it for legacy 1011! *bismillahh.. leading our way Allah SWT :)

just stay there
cause i'll be comin over
and while our bloods still young
it's so young
it runs
and we won't stop til it's over
won't stop to surrender
- Sweet Disposition by The Temper Trap -

Grand Opening PbOx Envy 2010

Come and Join Us!

What will you do?

• Cultural Sharing with Exchange Participant
• Know more about AIESEC Surabaya
• Exchange visitor's Plastic bag to our paper bag
• Write your signature as your participation in envy and showing your attention to environment
• have fun with games!
• Make a big change for the better life

For further information :
Ekin as OC communication
0856 4858 6672

fakta menyeramkan dibalik fairy tale

hari ini totally fun! gw ada talkshow di radio dan gw bareng sama temen gw , Ekin namanya.. kita berbincang-bincang.. dan gw gak ngerti tiba-tiba pembicaraan kami melenceng menjadi fairy tale. FYI, gw pecinta fairy tale. dari kecil udah doyan baca gituan haha..

dan ternyata gw kaget dengan kisah nyata dibalik fairy tale populer yang suka kita denger. pernah gak sih lo denger cerita cinderella? snow white? KISAH YANG BIASA KITA DENGER ITU BEDA! Aslinya gak semanis itu. sadis makanya diperhalus buat anak2..gw bakal ngupas hal ini disini *tambahan dari browsing2 dari internet juga

*Kisah red riding hood (si tudung merah)*

kita semua pada tahu kan kalo ceritanya si anak berkerudung merah ini disuruh ibunya ke rumah neneknya dan dia dikejar serigala dan minta tolong ke pemburu buat bantu ngeluarin neneknya yang udah dimakan serigala..

FACT 1 :
nyatanya, kisah ini diakhiri dengan Si cewek jubah merah ini mati dimakan serigala.

FACT 2 :
kisah ini memberikan asosiasi pada kita cewek yang bertudung merah diandaikan dengan cewek yang mulai memasuki usia dewasa (mulai Menstruasi) dan hutan yang dia masuki adalah sebagai kehidupan awal yang dia tahu bahaya apa yang akan menanti.. serigala disini adalah orang-orang yang akan mencelakai kita selama dalam perjalanan hidup ini.. dan pemburu adalah penolong bagi kita yang sedang kesusahan


*Kisah Cinderella*

kan kita tahunya pas pangeran dateng ke rumah cinderella buat nyari siapa yang punya kaki yg pas buat sepatu kacanya.. kakak2nya cinderella berebutan namun gak ada yang muat.. dan sepatunya pecah. tapi cinderella dari jauh mengeluarkan sepatu kaca pasangannya.. dan pada akhirnya cinderella memaafkan ibu tirinya.. dan mereka semua tinggal di istana..

#Fact :
ternyata aslinya gak begitu indah ceritanya.. ibu tirinya berusaha agar kaki anak2nya bisa muat sama sepatu. kaki kakak tirinya yang gede sama ibu tirinya jaro-jarinya DIPOTONG agar muat. sementara putrinya yang kakinya kekecilan kakinya DIGILAS dengan roda gerobak kuda yang sangat berat agar bisa lebih panjang. namun cara2 itu tidak berhasil karena sepatu kacanya tetep gak muat.. Ketika Sang Pangeran menemukan bahwa pemilik sepatunya adalah Cinderella, maka murkalah dia, dan segera memerintahkan burung elang peliharaannya untuk mematuk dan memakan mata Ibu Tiri Cinderella, kemudian mengusir Ibu Tiri dan adik-adik tirinya dari kota. Sang Ibu Tiri dan adik tiri Cinderella pada akhirnya menjadi pengemis yang tinggal di luar kota. *weww banget

*Hansel dan Gretel*

wah siapa sih yang gak tahu kisah ini? sepasang adik kakak yang pergi ke hutan karena gak tahan dengan orangtuanya. terus nemuin rumah terbuat dari kue. yang ternyata pemiliknya si nenek sihir yang jahat? akhirnya nenak sihir mati didorong hansel gretel ke tungku pemanas api..

#Fact :

Hansel dan Gretel diceritakan sering disiksa oleh orang tuanya yang psycho. Sang ayah sering menyambuk mereka dan sang ibu suka melukai kedua anak itu dengan menyayat kulit mereka dan tertawa-tawa saat melihat darah mengalir keluar dari kulit yang tersayat itu. Saat kedua anak itu kabur dari rumah, keduanya bertemu rumah yang terbuat dari permen / coklat, yang tidak lain adalah milik Tukang Sihir. Yang mengejutkan, Sang Tukang Sihir adalah Kanibal yang pada akhirnya membunuh dan memakan mereka.

*Snow white and seven dwarfs*
kisah putri yang memakan apel beracun yang dibangunkan oleh pangeran? siapa juga yang gak tahu? kisah ini sangat disukai dan populer diantara anak-anak. tapi nyatanya kisahnya pun berbeda dengan versi aslinya

#Fact :
Di akhir cerita, dikisahkan bahwa Putri Salju yang tewas setelah makan apel beracun, hidup lagi berkat ciuman seorang Pangeran. Setelah Putri Salju diboyong ke istana, sang Ratu dihukum. Namun berbeda dengan versi yang anda ketahui, hukuman untuk Sang Ratu sangatlah kejam. Kakinya dipasung dengan sepatu besi dan si Ratu dipaksa menari sampai mati di hadapan Putri Salju.

yahh agak shock juga sii setelah tahu kisah aslinya jadi gini.. ternyata kita bener2 dibodohi tentang ini.. weww. gimana pendapat kaliann??

Tinta terakhir untuk guruku tersayang

Bapak Acep yang kami cintai,

Masih ingatkah bapak?
ketika bapak memperkenalkan diri sebagai wali kelas kami di XII.IS.1 setahun kedepan?

Masih ingatkah bapak?
ketika bapak tertawa mengajarkan kami Bahasa Indonesia?

Masih ingatkah bapak?
ketika bapak hanya tersenyum dan dengan sabar menghadapi tingkah laku kami yang nakal

Masih ingatkah bapak?
ketika kita semua berfoto bersama-sama di NIc's Cafe untuk buku tahunan angkatan kami?

Masih ingatkah Bapak?
ketika bapak menjadi guru pembimbing teknis karya tulis kami semua?

namun. semua itu hanyalah sekadar kenangan..
Kenangan yang akan terlukis di dalam hati kita semua.

kami mencoba melepas dirimu dengan ikhlas pak..
kami tahu engkau akan mendapat tempat yang jauh lebih baik

maka itu.. kami akan melepaskanmu dengan senyuman..
senyuman terima kasih..
terima kasih atas bimbingan dan didikan bapak kami bisa menjadi seperti sekarang

senyuman bangga..
bangga karena kami memiliki wali kelas yang menolong kami tanpa pamrih


love,


Marina

gratitude for anything happen

i just want to sleep and close my eyes
just thinking everything happen today

its not easy for me to forget that
i'm still must learn and learn for being good

waw. this shocking night.
i can't control emotions as well

i realize that will hard for me
ok this will be my point
my focus for upcoming term

*just do it for legacy 1011

*Sleeping tomorrow will be the hectic weekends :)

Year Plan makes me crazy!!

aihhhh!! planning totally makes me crazy! after i'm happy for the announcement.. My nightmare already began : *Planning for Communication Year PLan 2010-2011

at first i just said with myself that i can do it! i can finish it before the deadline! but in the fact its totally BIG NO NO!

i try to finish my comm year plan in just two days. but the end is i must revice again and again my year plan. and FYI, in AIESEC we usually use *Balance Scorecard for long-term planning and strategical thinking is needed in here. its my first time to use the tools. and i just wandering what is CSF (Critical Success Factor) and KPI (Key Perfomance Index)??

and then jeng jeng jengg.. i must face it and learn by doing! thats so challenging me! i try to used it i try to understand and finish it..

but thats still so far from me to being perfect in planning. and the kinds of planning thingy makes me crazy than before and so tiringg!!

everyday i must face my laptop especially in excel worksheet in anytime
i must meet with VP the other departments to talk our synergy
my sleep hours is only two- hours ago
and my head so dizzy seeing many words and tables as well

ok right now, i just want to sleeping in all the day finish my year plan as soon as possible
reading some novels, go take a walk for refresh my mind

maybe this is my first challenge. how to make good planning, strategic things and in the right track..

and in the end i just to said eventhough planning session is very tiring for me and takes a lot time

Thanks God I'm an AIESECer..
i can understand and used BSC right now

*Love my CSF a lot : ITI - MI - MA - EPSO - OROM yayy!

xoxo Marina

Higher position means big responsibility!

" LCVP Communication 1011 AIESEC Surabaya, Indonesia "

it an honored for me to handle that high position..
its not about the position. the pride or show-off

but it really deep means to me..
its a big responsible that must i have to in upcoming term.
it's the way to manage your team effectively
it's about you try to deal problems in external way
its about re-branding our image

its about dealing with myself.
develop my leaderships skills. my panics. my communication skills as well.
try to manage three media partners and try to handle my time-management

I proud that i will be able work with widy dinarti
she is inspired person to me. she is my MCVP Communication. she is my LCP AIESEC Surabaya 0910 and she is my beloved mentors. it will challengeing my worldview againn!

it's not easy like i can close my hands
it will be a need a great efforts for legacy 1011

and i will do my best that i can give to AIESEC Surabaya
every day, everywhere..why?

because I'm an AIESECer right??

its vanished like wind

haha i think its two months that i live without him..

i know that this month it will be one years of our anniversary.

at first my feelings still in pain and sorrow..
but right now i can stand by myself i don't think about any love until now..

yeaa.. my feelings now to him its vanished like air.
it's gone and i just feel like he is my usual friends.
is it weird? i can forgot easily my feelings for him?

haha.. but thanks god. we can be a friends againn. i know we have a hard deal to make this. but i'm still fine about that..

yahh? love can be seek in many ways right?

like the AIESEC Philiphines said :

"I'm Single because i'm too busy changing the world!"

love recovery!

Cinta datang kepada orang yang masih mempunyai harapan walaupun mereka telah dikecewakan.Kepada mereka yang masih percaya,walaupun mereka telah dikhianati.Kepada mereka yang masih ingin mencintai,walaupun mereka telah disakiti sebelumnya dan kepada mereka yang mempunyai keberanian dan keyakinan untuk membangunkan kembali kepercayaan.

hateful sorrow

sakitt
sangat sakit tuhan..

aku tidak percaya..
rasa sakit ini kembali lagi hadir

hatiku remuk
hatiku hancur
hatiku hampa

sakit tuhann..
sangat sakit di dada ini..

aku tidak menginginkan kebetulan ini?
aku juga tidak menginginkan takdir ini terjadi?

apakah semua ini telah diatur oleh-Mu?
apakah hatiku masih perlu diuji oleh-Mu?

sakit tuhan..
sangat sakit..

aku seakan tidak bisa bernapas..
sayapku pun sudah tidak berfungsi sempurna..

duniaku gelap gulita
duniaku luluh lantak seketika

aku cuma ingin bersikap tegar
aku cuma ingin menjadi mandiri

tuhan,,
tolong..

jauhkan aku dari semuanya..
aku ingin menutupnya rapat-rapat..
dan aku tidak ingin membukanya lagi..

*amienn.. kabulkanlah doaku ini T.T